if i don't have you, i have everything else.

my first thought about you:
i was like eeeeeeee.... he's cute,
but i never told anyone la. okay.
and i didn't know how to use the word HOT YET
cause i thought it was weird.
haha
but if you don't se tht word now its even weirder.
:P okay moving on..

2nd thoughts:
sigh. it was only a few days of a chance to see you
plus each day only had few hours.
:(
i hated that i wasn't brave enough to talk to you
over those pass few days.
i liked you. secretly
no one else knew.
nobody cared i guess. :(
memories like these suck okay**

3rd thought:
i didn't see you that day.
it was the most fun day ever.
but you WEREN"T THERE.
:(
you were sick
i still remember.
gawd, i didn't even know your name.
but i still thought about you.

4th thought:
we played together.
for the first time.
you said a few words to each other.
it felt like heaven?
no actually, it felt good.
LOL.
i LIKED you.

5th thought:
it was the last day i would ever be seeing you
until i don't know when
i had the freakin show to do.
i cried my eyes out before it started.
i was scared to death.
i wanted you to be there with me.
i watched you watching me.
i was on the stage, you were in the audience.
:(
i missed you.
then, something happened.
she said something about you
but.
it was no use.





i couldn't see you anymore.
well,
only you know what happened there,
if you're reading this,
i can't bother
i can't try
i DON"T dare.
to tell you how i really feel.
cuase its no use.

NOW:
i'm not in the country.
but i'm stupid?
am i crazy?
am i an idiot?
I"M SORRY if you think so.
but no one will ever know how i really felt about you.
if you're reading this.
i hope you know how i feel now.
cause i don't dare to talk to you.
lalala~