definition.

Questions i'd like to ask: What if everything in the world was revolving around you? And one small mistake would be the end? What would you do? What if you had wrong thoughts about someone/something? Think about that...


friend /frend/ noun [ C ] PERSON YOU LIKE

1. a person who you know well and who you like a lot, but who is usually not a member of your family

how do you explain friendship? something that comes an goes, no? it kinda sucks having that feeling like.yeah! they're the people i trust, love and cherish every single day of my life. but reality strikes and "BOOM".

*loud dramatic music plays*

reality isn't the best thing in the world now is it?honestly. i feel used. what happened to boys don't matter when you have your friends? like woah. if you don't mean it, don't say it. cause when something happens and you go back on your word. it'll be like ughhh... =.= who have you known longer? your friends? or the person you like? gawd. is it that hard to understand ? people have feelings. nobody's perfect and all.. blablabla. and whatever. but that doesn't give you an excuse to do stupid things to people who care about you. listening to sad emo music doesn't help when you're going through these things, :( . i don't feel sadness that often anymore. cause God is in my life. and he helps me. but still. these things don't just go away. if only our minds were programmed to forget unpleasant times in our life. everyone will be happy. Happiness wouldn't exist even if you had hundreds of friends and not one of them are loyal and trustable people. i do ENVY those who can live their lives so casually without having to worry about the people in our lives we call "Friends". There are a million things i would like to erase in my life, i may not be able to go back in time to re-live those scenes, but forgetting in my case would be enough. Think about this.

• you're in a society which is based on Materialism. all they want to do is show off how rich they are in their branded goods and other luxuries. imagine you weren't the kind of person who had tons of money, you are an average person. who wants to live life to the fullest. and praising god was the main criteria of life. how satisfying. but, even then, you try your best to blend in with people. you try to keep up with what they call a "standard". then in the end. all you get is nothing. all you have is bad memories you wish you could leave behind. people like this aren't worth your time, since you know all they have in mind is to use you. although finding someone who you call a best friend may be a 1 in a million chance. some courageous people dare to give it a shot. there's nothing to lose. if you had that person, you wouldn't need to pretend to be someone else, you wouldn't have to be COOL, you wouldn't have to have nice stuff to attract their attention. cause all they care about is YOU. some lucky people may already have found their best friend. and life is a breeze to them having that 1 friend. no more being ostracized.

i do believe that god will show the way. and being holy feels good. :)